i realized that
i have been standing on the first step all the time
be it in the past, now or even in future.
i'll never get to climb the steps and reach the top.
no matter how hard i try,
no matter how much effort i put in
im always in the same position
you have proven to me that im right.
afterall, you still care for her more.
im not jealous but
sometimes, it's really hard for me to accept that
no matter how hard i try to climb up to the top,
i still cant get there
but you always provide her with the best
to let her reach the top.
im really not happy about this, really.
im really tired. tired of climbing up
im only wasting my efforts and time
so one day, if you find me leaving
this means that im really have no energy to carry on
and im tired of trying

but i jus wan to tell you that I really love you.